His and Her Health

Okay, so I have never actually had a "orgasm". I thought I had, but then I found out what one actually was, and realized I hadn't. I've tried and tried, but nothing is ever different. So today I decided I was going to orgasm. I got into the tub, and must have been in there for about an hour with my vibrator. I kept building and building but everytime I felt like I should let go, nothing happend. As this went on I started to feel very full and heavy down there, and eventually I gave up. I then got up and sat on the toilet feeling like I had to urinate. I let go and I was curious so I looked, and it was clear, and didnt smell like urine at all, so im guessing I released? Seriously? whats wrong with me? why cant I let go in the heat of the moment? Then I realized thats how it always is. I will masturbate, wont realease, and then soon after I'll have to go to the bathroom. Whats wrong with me?? I've tried relaxing, and focusing in on the feeling but nothing seems to work. I want to orgasm but I fear I will never be able to :/ please help!

Do you fantasize while you masturbate?

The reason I ask, is because I find that it's easier to orgasm when you don't really think of it as a goal. I find it's easier when you just let the fantasies take over. Hope this helps.

Envy, when you get that feeling like you should let go try pushing out like you were going to urinate.